Not Quite There Yet
​THE SECOND TIME
​August 2017- March 2018 ​

(Carmen’s Perspective)
In this round we went in far more cautiously than the first and were intentional about taking things slowly. We talked more about our feelings and learned a lot about one another. We even introduced and spent a bit of time together with each of our families. Still, neither of us could deny the fact that we weren’t on the same page. I loved Terry deeply and I knew he loved me, but we wanted different things from the relationship, it was clear in the way we showed up for one another. I wanted more from him and he wasn't in the space to give it. We parted ways for a second time. 
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Again, not an unkind or angry word was exchanged. Doesn’t mean I didn’t think them though. I was hurt, especially because this chill, water sign (Pisces) didn’t fight for me. Back then, neither of us were doing the best job at communicating. Fear was by far the dominant emotion. Still, neither of us allowed ourselves to be even a little disrespectful to one another, but I was guarded.

Then, in January 2019 and after about 8 months of not communicating, we began having some very healing conversations. We both realized that each of us had to learn deeper lessons and invest far more heavily into ourselves, as individuals, before seriously entering into another romantic relationship.

We moved forward in friendship. But I swore I’d never go back in! Then his mom texted me around April of the same year. She said something like, “ Terry told me that the two of you were talking again and you never know…”  ( and added like a little heart emoji) At first, I chuckled and said to myself, “ Oh, I know!” But then, I can’t lie, the text made me kind of curious.
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August 2017- March 2018